Christmas thoughts and almost 4 months down

Almost two months between posts is a *bit* longer then we planned. But honestly that's a good sign from my point of view. Two more months of waiting is done and it has flown by! Here we are a few short days away from being officially 4 months into our wait and something exciting has happened. Well, it was exciting to this mama's heart at least! The bedding that I have been eyeing for months for the baby's room finally went on clearance at Target! So we made a happy trek to Target amongst all the last minute Christmas shoppers and finally bought it. We were able to get many of the coordinating pieces because everything was 50% off. This was a big deal to me because there is so little I can be doing right now to practically prepare for him. And I'm a planner, an organizer... I like to be ready for whatever's going to come, whenever it decides to show up. I don't know how old he's going to be when he finally comes home or how big he'll be so buying clothes is not a smart option. (Now I may or may not have bought a few pairs of shoes, but I figure he'll need them at some point!) So being able to buy this bedding for him was a wonderful moment for me. It makes him real, tangible; it makes me feel connected to him because I'm doing something to prepare for his arrival. I need to be able to do that from time to time because this waiting can get old.

Our sweet boy, wherever he is, has been on my mind a great deal this Christmas season. It's so strange to not know if he's even been born yet; is this his first Christmas? Or will it be here with us next year? Regardless, he is on my mind A LOT. The Lord, in His infinite graciousness, allows that longing for my baby to come in small doses. I don't think I could handle it otherwise!

Christmas has also found me remembering that while we celebrate that He came as a baby, what I really need to focus on is that He's Coming Again! May I long for His return more then anything else!

Merry Christmas from our family to yours!

-kate-